October 17th ; Journal prompts

1. Who inspires you most in your life?
My daughter. She gives me the strength and energy to keep doing what I'm doing, because I'm doing it for her. She comes before me always. Others may not think I'm the best mom or the greatest, but she does and that's what matters... She makes me want to be a better person and grow to be strong and confident... it's all for her.

2. Your best accomplishment

I don't know if I have a 'best' but I graduated high school, late, but better than never. I had a lot going on at the time and I STILL graduated and did the damn thing. Becoming a mom is another, because I never thought I could be a mom and be a damn good one. Another accomplishment, even though I often complain, is working at my job as long as I have. It's been almost 2 years and that's unreal since I've never had a job more than 6 months in the past. Nor have I really had a job, so staying focused on keeping one, especially a stressful one, is damn impressive.

3.When do you feel most confident?
This is a hard one, because I honestly don't know. Sometimes I'm feeling my makeup or my hair, or my outfit and Im like damn okay I'm cute... but confidence is so much more than looks and this is just a hard question for me. Hoping my confidence improves and I can answer this better in the future...

4. Your favorite personality trait

Hmm. My favorite is probably my kindness... it can have negative set backs, but honestly I have so many people who enjoy talking to me (or they seem to) and I'm usually very kind. I wish I had a better explanation of myself for this one... lol.

5. What makes you happiest in life?
I don't know one specific thing that makes me happiest. I definitely can say my daughter... her hugs and kisses and our time together. My boyfriend is pretty up there, but lower than my daughter obvis. Reading makes me happy. Having a clean environment. Knowing that I'm actually cared for and loved. Cooking. Laying in bed after a rough day at work (or a day at work in general) and just relaxing... music. There's so much happiness in my life that I don't always see but I'm glad I can see it occasionally.

6. Give yourself a compliment.

I did really good at handling myself at work even when Rydik bit me. I stayed calm and didn't freak, which utterly shocked and surprised me. I wish I had a better compliment than that, but this is something.

7.What does your dream life look like?
My dream life looks like living in a nice, comfortable home, living comfortably (not even rich, but knowing I have money if and when I need it...) with a safe and reliable car, my daughter, a man whom I'm married to (no one specific) maybe with a dog. My house would be beautiful. A nice backyard, a porch in the back... a place where I could have a garden. An underground pool would be nice... A fire pit would be nice as well, homemade or bought. I'd love to have a fireplace in my home. With a few rooms. 4 would be ideal. I'd like one for my husband and i, my daughter, a craft room and maybe an office. I'm not planning on any more kids yet, so the rooms would be there if i possibly did. Two bathrooms would be nice. And a whirlpool tub... walk in shower. And the idea of having a washer and dryer would be amazing. Sitting in front of the fire after a long day of earning income and watching tv on a nice warm couch with my husband... the dream life is simple.

8.Set three short term and long term goals for yourself.

Short term - To become more confident, to become healthier and to be happier.

Long term - To get a degree, a car, and a house of my own.

9. What do you need to forgive yourself for?

Not accepting myself for the way I am... I know I should but i also don't need to beat myself up for not being at that place yet.

10.  Your favorite memory.

When my daughter was born, hands down. <3